I feel like hell right now, I feel invincible, I feel terrible, I feel… sad, really sad and angry at God. I wish I wasn’t in church right now so that I could cry. I feel the tears shimmering on my lids. God why me? Why?
I can’t even put to words the exact way I feel... Empty perhaps? Yes empty. I feel like I am just living aimlessly. Why do I feel this way when I am in your presence? I should be happy…I should feel loved... I should feel wrapped in the comfort of your presence around me… but I don’t.